Updates.... No pics...

Well, not a whole lot has actually been happening lately. A lot of planning though! So all of the below is an update/vent....

Chloe is getting teeth finally :) Her bottom, left tooth is actually through and I think the other is coming in too. She pulls herself up a lot, and has apparently climbed a step. I wish I could have seen it, but that is one of the lovely consequences of working. I will miss a lot of firsts :( But Chloe is growing so fast. Not as fast as some other babies I know of, but I look at it like this: she is getting more developmental time than them!! :) She's 10 months now and just so much fun. She has the happiest little laugh that you can't help but laugh at yourself, and cruises all over the place!! But you will never hear me complain about chasing after her. I wish I had 10 little ones to chase after!!! I'm not going to lie - I have never seen a more happy, more adorable baby.... She's still bald, but her little blond hairs are coming in and with any luck, it will be curly like mine was!

Shane is working for my brothers' framing company. We are so indebted to them. Carpet has been painfully slow and just not reliable anymore. Here is where our planning comes in! When we were in Logandale, my brother, Nathan, (who is LVMPD) started talking about it in casual conversation. Shane and I have always talked about him [Shane] being a police officer but Utah cops are jokes... No offense to anyone who is one - but they just don't get enough compensation for what they do! But when Nathan started telling us about it, and when we looked at what he has, it got us thinking. He is able to solely support his family and they seem quite comfy ;) We have wanted to get out of Utah County since before we were married; it was just a matter of "How?!"

Anyway, we thought about it for a couple of weeks and decided that it would be a good move. So on Feb 10, Shane will test to join the police academy. That is just the first step! He has to get into the Academy then get through it! The Academy is 6 months long, not to mention the 4-6 months we have to wait to even find out if he gets in.... I know he can do it, but anytime something is not a sure thing, it's nerve wracking! It is all such a long process and I really don't have the patience, but it will be worth it in the end. Things never work out as planned so it makes me really anxious and nervous and everything else all at once!! If it does go as planned, I will stay here while Shane is in the Academy so we can save save save!!! I will of course be visiting as often as I can, but things are just up in the air right now! Regardless, I want to make sure I am moved by Christmas; we will not be living in separate states for Christmas.

As for me, I have been in a funk lately. Not depressed... just kind of... nothing. I hate going to work every day. My job is bearable, but it's just that. It is boring and a waste of my time. I am grateful to have a job right now, but I would rather be the one raising my baby. It's heartbreaking, but I have to do it! I am up at 4AM every day because I work at 6AM. Shane doesn't get home until 6:30PM and goes to the gym some nights and I try to be in bed by 9:30. It's just a mindless routine now and I hate it! I love routine, but not this one.

I just envy those women who get to stay home. I'm not going to lie or sugar coat it - NOTHING makes me more mad than when I hear them say things about wanting to get out of the house and leave the kids behind with daddy or a sitter or whatever. Or the women who would be able to stay at home, but CHOOSE to work?!? Don't even get me started. I might feel differently if I stayed at home - but I don't. Those mom's just don't realize how great they have it.

Now I'm sure it sounds like I don't appreciate what I have and the work that Shane does. That is so not true. He can't help the situation we're in. If he had gone to school, then we'd be paying off student loans right now and I'd still have to be working. It is what it is right now. But enough of that ranting!

Anyway, so that is our future plan - to move to Vegas and never move back to Utah County! No more stupid snow storms and stupid college kids crossing the streets with those stupid orange flags! AND NO MORE STUPID UTAH DRIVERS!!!!! Regardless of when we move, we HAVE TO SELL OUR STUPID HOUSE!!!! I don't mean to call it stupid, but it is the dark cloud over our heads right now. I am to the point of standing on the street corner, handing out flyers. (or giving a Finder's Fee to anyone that helps sell my house!!!) UGH....

Sorry for all of that. As a disclaimer though, I love my husband. He is SO talented - so much so that he doesn't even realize it. I always tell him that I actually married him because he is so handy :) He is such a sweet daddy and every time he walks in the room, Chloe goes CRAZY! I know that this move will be good for us. And I am sorry for anyone that just read that whole thing... Not a pleasant post, but it felt good to get it out!!!