2/5/12

I have been failing miserably lately. I know no one wants to hear this, so you can stop reading now.

I feel like I been such an inadequate mother/human being lately. Everywhere I see and read on Facebook, other blogs, or where ever has shown me that I am not even close to up to par. There are mothers out there with far more to handle than me and I can't even make a good dinner every night. I do have a full-time job and a husband who works 2 very full-time jobs so I don't really have a right to ask him to help. It's my responsibility to keep a clean house and cook meals and keep all the clothes laundered, etc... FAIL. I swear as soon as I ever DO clean up, the room is torn apart within hours. My mom was so awesome at keeping up with our messes. She had probably at least 7 people living at home for as long as I can remember, and those were the quiet times. Our dishes were always done, clothes always clean, and house just in general good order. I have two kids and can't keep up with anything. FAIL. I have no patience for anything and always just feel so unbelievably tired. FAIL.

I know that I am only catching glimpses of everyone else's situations with FB and blogs, but they sure do paint pretty pictures. I'm not even going to try and sugar coat it. People always say how crazy their lives are, but they wouldn't have it any other way. Not so here! I would change about 75% of my situation if I could. Things are just fine, but could be better. And about 99% of that 75% is just my own fault. MY laziness, MY impatience, MY need to have nice things. ... Anyway, I love my kids and I know they love me. It makes me so happy when I pick them up every day and they both run to give me hugs. That would be one of the only perks to working - experiencing their reactions when I pick them up.

Shane has been working his tail off. Leaves the house at 10:30PM and gets home in time to get maybe 6 hours of sleep. I try to keep things quiet so he can get good sleep, but my house is like a tunnel and noise travels! We leave here at 6AM so I can be to work by 7 and we're usually home around 4:45PM. I usually sit and chat with the kids' babysitter, who I just love. I'm so glad that I found her.

Anyway, enough of my pity party. I'm really good with those ;) Now time for a very few pictures of the latest happenings.

Took Chloe to see Beauty and the Beast in 3D. It was so fun :)

Both kids were sick one day, so I got to take the day off and be with them.

Did I mention that Shane was in an accident? He got T-boned while he was making a left turn. He was totally fine, but very sad about his truck. He loves this truck and luckily, it should be fixed this week - it's been an interesting couple of weeks trying to figure out what vehicle he would use to lay carpet, but his brother and dad were so awesome to let us borrow their trucks and trailer for a little bit. (THANK YOU)

The damage may not look that bad, but the truck was about $1200 away from being totaled. Most of the damage was in his axle area underneath.

Chloe started Primary. She, of course, loves it!

Some nights, my kids don't want to sleep. They just want to talk and play, even if they're just in their beds. We do have some fun times on those nights though.

Chloe's preschool field trip combined with the other Tues/Thurs class.  I was able to take that day off from work and be a carpool mom. I hope I can do that more often!!

The kids got their first hair cuts! I just took them to Fantastic Sams (and didn't even get to keep the clippings :(  ) They both did really well though and no longer have mullets!!!

My sweet sweet little babies. They love each other so much and I am so lucky to have them both. We love them so much and know that they were meant just for us :) They make it all worth it.

Perfect!

This amazing quote was created today by my friend/supervisor at work. It was said for no specific reason at all, but is such a true sentiment.

The power of song

I haven't posted in a while - and this isn't really a "post" but it was so cute.

Last night, it was almost time for Chloe to go to bed, but she let me know that she wanted to watch Beauty and the Beast. I told her that it was almost bed time and she just kind of brushed off that request and said again that she wanted to watch Beauty and the Beast. She wasn't upset or anything.

I decided that, rather than start a "fight", I would take advantage of the season! I just started singing, "Santa Claus is Coming to Town". After the first line in the song, big huge crocodile tears came to her eyes and she was just devastated. I kept singing the song and went over and picked her up. After I finished, I lifted her head and asked if she wanted to go lay down.

She quietly nodded and we went to bed :)

Adam turns ONE!

We hosted the Peavler Family Dinner this month so we decided to sing Happy Birthday to Adam on that day. He's such a cute little guy...

I made him a rainbow cake that I found on Pinterest (my latest addiction). He did so awesome with eating it. I would say that he probably got 90% of the cake actually in his mouth! The cake was ginormous - totally accidental. Anyway, it took Adam a minute to realize that I was actually going just let him get messy -- not my favorite thing :) He caught on eventually though :)  {sorry - I still can't figure out how to get these pictures to land where I want them!}

After cake, I gave him a quick bath so he could come back and enjoy his birthday gift - which he did!

Anyway, on Adam's actual birthday, I took his picture while he was still asleep - by the third one, he was starting to notice the flash and started waking up. He's just such a precious little guy. We love having him :)

Unfortunately, I did not get to spend his birthDAY with him, but when I picked him up from the babysitter, they brought all the kids in the room and they all sang Happy Birthday to him. It was so sweet and he gave me this look of "Is this really for ME?!". It was adorable. It was a good day though. He was SO tired at bedtime. 

I never thought I'd truly enjoy having a baby boy. They're loud and messy and HYPER. Then I had this boy. He is loud, messy, but not hyper :) And I would not change one thing about him. He is perfect and I fall more in love with him every day. Happy Birthday, Adam Adam.

August/Sept...

Where do I begin? Nothing and everything has happened in the last month.

We paid off our trailer. It is OURS!

Shane was officially hired at his second job. With their AMAZING benefits, I was able to cancel benefits through my work and save lots of money!

Adam actually started crawling. He still rarely does it - he prefers his perfected Army crawl. He'd fly through Boot Camp with his moves.

Chloe started Pre School and loves it. I never wanted to put my kids in preschool. It seems kind of needless. But, she really needed disciple and structured interaction with other kids her age. And things they learn in preschool now seem to be what I was learning in Kindergarten!

The babysitter is working out wonderfully! The extra driving time is kind of a bummer, but it's a small price to pay!

Our garden has been less than great this year :( The corn just dried up. The cucumber plants were eaten by snails before they could really get started. The tomatoes are just really really late. The peppers are doing ok, I guess. Either way, it's not been a great harvest for us!

That can probably be chalked up to Shane working so many hours a day. Since this job has started, he's probably had 3-5 days that he didn't have a carpet job in addition to his graveyard shift. HOWEVER, we are both extremely grateful for the opportunities and benefits this job has already provided us with.

We started making plans to buy a plot of land somewhere - southern Utah County. As far from Orem as we can get... Not really. We just don't want neighbors and we want at least a couple of acres to spread out and eventually build our dream home. We're not in any rush since we'll just be sitting on the land for a few years, but we're making plans! (so if anyone has any leads....)

Other than that, it's just been the daily grind. I'm enjoying my job, Shane is thriving at his, and my babies are happy and healthy. Life is good.

Grey's 2011

Our annual trip to Grey's River in Wyoming was last month. It was very different this year in that hardly ANYONE came. It was very relaxing and calm though. My kids were the only ones there so they got lots of love from everyone else :) Chloe had her first taste of wild fish and thank goodness for Bumbos!! We also went on a nice, long hike. I am OUT OF SHAPE, but probably will never be IN shape, so oh well. I lived.

Lucky for me, Kameron, Tracey, and Shelly helped us SO much with Chloe and Adam. 12 miles is tough with little kids and out of shape parents :)

On the hike

Me and Shelly were the only ones not fishing so we hung out for an hour or two with the kids and dogs.

Jerry caught these little guys to give some people their first taste of wild fish! (not me...)

Grandma and Chloe with their glow sticks!

He always has the most mischievous little looks on his face!! 

Chillaxin - makin s'mores

Kameron and Tracey trading off. 

Chloe had her first taste of fish! She wasn't totally sure about it....

Chloe made me a little foam picture thing.

The rest

After that camping trip to Buckhorn Draw, Shane started to work graveyard shifts at his second job at US Synthetic. He started working there as a temp and will be hired on soon. This job has been such an amazing/hard thing for us. It has helped us to get our trailer paid off (yay!!!) and allowed us to make purchases and repair vehicles without even having to blink at "where will the money come from". We are by no means, rolling in the dough, but it is a nice security blanket. Once Shane gets hired on, his benefits are amazing. He plans on staying there for the long haul. He's also still doing carpet daily so he is one busy and tired guy. Anyway, just read the captions on these pictures (hopefully you can figure out what description goes with what).

Chloe and Adam sure do love each other...

 Shane's work had a crawfish boil and carnival in June. They had big moon bounces, slides, cotton candy, and  even pony rides for the kids! The little ponies were so cute!

Adam got his first teeth!!

Our white trash way of keeping cool. We have gotten a kiddie pool since this.

In May, my sister and her family came down to help my niece get moved in for school (SHE'S IN COLLEGE!!) Anyway, they invited me on their picnic to Bridal Veil Falls in Provo Canyon. 

Chloe and Adam with my Dad

Our little family.

Adam's very first time in the pool! He absolutely loves the water.

Chloe and Devri at my (and Layne's) work party

My two beautiful babies :)