Jan 26, 2010

Not Much...

I don't really have a lot to post on - I was just getting sick of seeing those large behinds every time I went to my blog! Life is normal. I'm having a really hard time with my gym goals. I missed a couple of days because we were all sick and then.....I'm really disappointed in myself, but I am at least trying to eat healthier and all that jazz.... Don't judge me just yet!

We saw Avatar 3D last weekend. It was pretty awesome. Not at all like the previews, but you can't accurately describe that movie in a 30 second blurb. The previews before the movie were AWESOME!!!! So worth the money - even for just those. Anyway, we were pretty close to the screen, but it was ok. Still loved it. We came out of the theater to about 4 inches of snow though!

We just did our taxes tonight - we are still waiting on one W2 from one of Shane's jobs last year but so far, so good! Not good if we want/need to get any new loans this year --- our income is HORRIBLE --- thus the situation we're in! :) But we're getting there. Things seem like they are starting to turn around.... I just hope that everything that happens this year will be for the best. There are some great things in store - I just know it. Either way, 2010 will have some great happenings for us.

Anyhow, hopefully I can get off my lazy can one of these days and go take some pictures. I think it's supposed to snow again - maybe this week and there are some pretty places up Provo Canyon. I'm no photographer, but I like to pretend sometimes!

Oh - and I know that we so totally shouldn't take family vacations when we're dirt poor, but we are going to start doing the National and Utah State Parks! We are going to go to Arches first this year, and hopefully later in the year we can go to Yosemite! I never saw much of the West Coast so this will be fun new travels for me!

Oh and I guess I have a few pictures I can post from the last couple of weeks....






Chloe and Shane at his birthday dinner at TucanosChloe giving her cousin, Bridgette a kiss



Going to play in the SNOW!!!


Ands just in case you haven't seen her pigtails yet :)

Jan 14, 2010

Sickening


I may not look like this - but it's how I feel!!!

Ok - So I am officially sick of being fat. Yes - I am. When I turned 19 I was so awesome. Of course, I didn't think so at the time, but I would give just about anything, literally, to be that thin again. Then - I got my job. I went from walking around BYU campus for half the day, being on my feet at OfficeMax for another 4-8 hours, and just being active --- to sitting at a desk for 4 hours a day -- which quickly became 8 hours a day.

Unfortunately, my eating habits did not change. I was able to pig out - seriously - a bag of popcorn, pop tarts, ice cream, Little Caesar's pizza and breadsticks were all staples in my diet. That did not change - my weight did.

I got my job in February. By December, I had gained about 40 pounds. I saw a picture of myself at my sister's wedding and wanted to cry. I was in denial up until then. It still took me a few months to get the motivation to diet and exercise and just when I started to, I found out I was pregnant. I knew that if my body wasn't used to such a strict regime that I shouldn't take chances when I was pregnant so I kind of lost that battle.

I tried to walk a lot while I was pregnant but it was hard! I was always so tired and just wanted to sleep. By the time I got over that, it was too late. I gained about 30 pounds with Chloe - that is a total of 70 +/- pounds in 2 years. Well, luckily, most of my baby weight was water and that came off fairly quickly - 2 weeks. But I was still so overweight. BTW - this whole time, I had a gym membership....

Now, here I am. Almost with a 2-yr old and no closer to my goal weight than the day I had her. You may ask "why is she putting all this out there? telling everyone how overweight she has become," or you might be saying "why does she think I care?" I don' think you care... But by telling everyone, they can see either how awesome I am for accomplishing something, or how pathetic and lazy I am for not dropping a pound.....

Also, I am doing this because I have e been watching my sisters and sisters-in-law get into shape and just slim right down! I have seen my friends from high school just melt the baby weight away. I don't want anyone to try and patronize me. Just accept what I say! I am doing this because I feel uncomfortable in my own skin and HATE HATE HATE the way I look. And I have lots of expensive clothes that have been in storage for a long time because I refuse to give up on my dream. I know I'll never get down to what I used to be - I wish I could.... maybe I can?? But I have got to lose at LEAST 30 pounds. My target date is April 5 because the Clark County Fair is that weekend and I don't like my old friends seeing the fat cow that I have become :(

Below is what I used to be. I have posted is before and it has always been my "inspiration" picture. Yes, it is a vain picture, but I am glad I have it to use now.



PS - I am going to TRY 2-a-days at the gym for a month to try and kick start things. Wish me luck!


Jan 2, 2010

Reclaimed wedding pictures!




I had to scan all of these in, so that's why there are only a few. I blew a couple up so Shane and I could actually have a real wedding portrait. I love them :)







New Year's Eve

New Year's Eve was pretty fun this year. We went to my brother's house in Eagle Mtn and played their Wii. Shane and I had never played before and never really had the desire, but just to be polite, we said ok :) It was so fun! We ate pizza and drank way too many Dr Peppers and Squirts, but don't worry - we worked off those calories on the Wii! Chloe and her cousin, Devri are pretty close in age so they just played with toys and watched movies in the bedroom.

I have to say, to all of you people from HS that made fun of me for being probably the most un-athletic person to walk the earth, I found my niche.... I can sport it up on the Wii any day and be awesome at it :) Ok so I wasn't amazing or anything. But still, for someone who quit track because her wrist hurt.... I did pretty great! (Kortney, I expect you are laughing your butt off right now!!)


Anyway, I got some funny videos of Brian and Shane - Layne was just good so it wasn't fun to video her!! She didn't make a fool out of herself like the rest of us! Shane won't let me post his videos because he gets embarrassed :( But here are the only pictures I took that night....





I got some wedding pictures that my mom had and scanned a few into my computer. I'll post those later... For your viewing enjoyment!!

Dec 30, 2009

The Hangover

So we have Netflix (LOVE IT) and we had The Hangover on our queue to be mailed... But it was a "very long wait" so we drove around to about 5 Red Boxes until we found it :) It was a funny movie. However, I must say that there was too much hype. I think if I had seen it before everyone else had, I would have liked it more. Oh well - it was still funny. I will see it again someday and probably love it more. I will let you in on a little secret --- and only because I know Shane doesn't read this blog - Bradley Cooper is **HOT** Not so much in the picture above, but still.... wowza.....

Anyway, for those of you who love to watch ANYTHING, I mean ANYTHING.... Netflix is awesome. I have watched everything from Dirty Jobs to The Munsters to Step Brothers.... EVERYTHING is on there. They have a lot of instant stuff so you can watch it online right there and if you have an XBox, you can sync it to that and watch it on your TV (I knew that stupid machine had to be good for something).

OOH - Shane's parents got us a Costco membership for Christmas. We went and got our cards yesterday. I love Costco. I can't wait to REALLY be able to use it! I will probably go there quite often just to browse. I'm a loser, I know :)

I guess I should get back to working, but I'm such a great procrastinator and I need to make sure I hone those precious skills.... Not everyone can do that!


***For those of you scorning me for watching a rated 'R' movie -- they just drop the "F" bomb (a lot) and then there are the end credits, but you don't HAVE to watch those. And who are you to judge anyway!!! :P

Dec 25, 2009

Shane coloring with Chloe

Christmas 2009


Well, Christmas is over. Time for another year to begin. That's always sad.... I can't say it wasn't a good year though! Chloe had so much fun this year and it was just nice all around. I FINALLY got snow boots so I won't have to traipse around in my regular old tennis shoes and get wet
feet! And Shane was also nice enough to replace my stolen iPod with a new one. So sweet :) The pictures won't do the day justice, but enjoy anyway!

Nice sister that I am, I made Christmas plates and took them to my siblings that were around for Christmas :)

Chloe got a Flirty Apron from my brother's family and she LOVES it!

It was not so easy putting together Chloe's little dolly set. Oh well - worth it in the end!!




Shane even got Chloe a little Doodle Pad thingy.


Shane got fishy pajama pants; I got snow boots and a new hat!





Chloe and Shane colored for a bit after naptime too. It was so sweet :)
 
(saying "CHEESE!")  Shane was pretending to sleep so I wouldn't catch him coloring with her!

Dec 23, 2009

*sigh of relief*

So we were actually able to trade in our #$%^&$^&(%^^@#$$&^((@!@$%))(*&^%.!@#$%^&*( TRUCK!!! That's how much I LOATHED that hunk of poo. We now have a better vehicle, lower payments, and peace of mind knowing that this one won't need to have THOUSANDS of dollars pumped into it every year!
2003 Chevy Silverado (diesel)


Dec 22, 2009

Seeing Santa

Santa..... Ah Santa.... When will Chloe ever love him? She freaked again this year. Oh well. Someday....

Dec 17, 2009

The Three Levels of Christmas

Since I won't be home for Christmas, I won't get to hear my dad recite his traditional "Three Levels of Christmas". So, I thought I would post it to make sure that I got to hear it. I hope you all enjoy this poem about the true meaning of Christmas (not to belittle the LOVE that I have for the non true meaning.......)

By William B. Smart
Christmas is a beautiful time of the year. We love the excitement, the giving
spirit, the special awareness of and appreciation for family and friends, the
feelings of love and brotherhood that bless our gatherings at Christmastime.

In all the joyousness, it is well to reflect that Christmas comes in three
levels.

Let’s call the first the Santa Claus level. It’s the level of Christmas trees
and holly, of whispered secrets and colorful packages, of candlelight and rich
food and warm open houses. It’s carolers in the shopping malls, excited
children, and weary but loving parents. It’s a lovely time of special warmth and
caring and giving. It’s the level at which we eat too much and spend too much
and do too much–and enjoy every minute of it. We love the Santa Claus level of
Christmas.

But there’s a higher, more beautiful level. Let’s call it the Silent Night
level. It’s the level of all our glorious Christmas carols, of that beloved,
familiar story: “Now in those days there went out a decree from Caesar
Augustus…” It’s the level of the crowded inn, and the silent holy moment in a
dark stable when the Son of Man came to earth. It’s shepherds on steep, bare
hill near Bethlehem, angels with their glad tidings, a new star in the East,
wise men traveling far in search of the Holy One. How beautiful and meaningful
it is; how infinitely poorer we would be without this sacred second level of
Christmas.

The trouble is, these two levels don’t last. They can’t. Twelve days of
Christmas, at the first level, is about all most of us can stand. It’s too
intense, too extravagant. The tree dries out and the needles fall. The candles
burn down. The beautiful wrappings go out with he trash, the carolers are up on
the ski slopes, the toys break, and the biggest day in the stores in the entire
year is exchange day, December 26.

The feast is over and the dieting begins. But the lonely and the hungry are with
us still perhaps lonelier and hungrier than before.

Lovely and joyous as the first level of Christmas is, there will come a day,
very soon, when Mother will put away the decorations and vacuum the living room
and think, “Thank goodness that’s over for another year.”

Even the second level, the level of the Baby Jesus, can’t last. How many times
this season can you sing “Silent Night”? The angels and the star and the
shepherd, even the silent, sacred mystery of that holy night itself, can’t long
satisfy humanity’s basic need. The man who keeps Christ in the manger will, in
the end, be disappointed and empty.

No, for Christmas to last all year long, for it to grow in beauty and meaning
and purpose, for it to have the power to change lives, we must celebrate it at
the third level, that of the adult Christ. It is at this level–not as an
infant–that our Saviour brings His gifts of lasting joy, lasting peace, lasting
hope. It was the adult Christ who reached out and touched the untouchable, who
loved the unlovable, who so loved us all that even in His agony on the cross He
prayed forgiveness for His enemies.

This is the Christ, creator of worlds without number, who wept, Enoch tell us,
because so many of us lack affection and hate each other–and then who willingly
gave His life for all of us, including those for whom He wept.

This is the Christ, the adult Christ, who gave us the perfect example, and asked
us to follow Him.

Accepting that invitation is the way–the only way–to celebrate Christmas all
year and all life long.