Bonzo's Blog

Well.... this post may not be as cheery as the last.... When I last reported, I found out that I was able to get two more weeks of maternity leave! About a week later, I was laid off..... Pretty cool, huh?? We have no idea what is going to happen, but there is a "bright" side. I get regular work pay until January 3 then I get a severance - which works out to be 8 weeks of pay.
When I first got the call, it was surreal. I was devastated. Then, after having some time for it to sink in - I was kind of excited/relieved/and still devastated. I hated that job. Even though I was able to stay home with my babies, I still hated getting up and working with these people. Now I get to try and find a job where I can start fresh and maybe enjoy it again. I so wish that I didn't have to work, but unless we magically can pay off my car and Shane's truck and still afford insurance somehow, I will be working for the foreseeable future.
I am SO heartbroken at the thought of having to leave my kids. I have been working from home for a year and before that I was home by 3:30 so I still had a lot of time to spend at home. I have been able to be the Mommy for a year now and it has been amazing. I cannot even think about how hard it will be to start something new. But we have to have insurance and I'm sure we "make too much" to get CHIPS or WIC or anything like that.

Other than that, things are going pretty well! We have been extremely fortunate for Shane to be so busy at work. He has a few days where he doesn't work, but his pay checks have been more than enough to keep up with the bills (we still need mine to pay it all though). I've been attempting to potty train Chloe, but she is just not having it. I can't force her and I'm trying to just take a relaxed approach to it so she doesn't feel too much pressure. But if she's three before it happens, I just don't know what I'll do! I'm not excited to deal with accidents and changing the sheets multiple times a week (I do have a plastic mattress cover though!)

Adam is awesome. I just fall more and more in love with him every time I look at him. He is really starting to interact with us - cooing and squealing. He and Chloe will just sit and smile and laugh at each other and I know the second I grab a camera, it will stop.... So I can't share that with all of you! I am so grateful that I am getting to spend this time with him so he knows me. I'm still able to nurse him and I just love that time together. I don't love it so much at 2am, but I still look down at him and want to cry because I love him so much.

We went to Logandale for Thanksgiving and of course that was fun! Brian and Janell and their families both stayed at my Mom's too. We had 6 of the siblings and their families on Thanksgiving Day --- my Mom needs a bigger house :) We stayed up late playing Scatergories and laughing/crying and Brian and Dan's answers (Dan - make sure you call Brian 'Willy Wonka' from now on!) I love being at my parents' house, even though it is completely different from when I lived there - it still feels like home!

Anyway, here are a few pics from recent happenings - sorry for the rambling!