Reality Strikes....

Ugh - I don't even have any other word to describe how things have been. Just "ugh"....

As most of you know, I'm sure, the LVMPD thing didn't work out, which really sucks. It just didn't - and to respect Shane's privacy, I'm not even going to explain it so please don't ask. But he was really upset about it. And we really do not like police officers now... Among other reasons, they are liars. End of story.... (excluding family members with that profession)

ANYWAY, so that's #1. Next on the list is our living situation. It has become impossible for us to afford our house with the market the way it is. It was not selling at all so after the cop thing busted, we decided to try and rent it. Within one week, we had the renters. It took a few weeks to get the contracts signed and the deposit check, but it's all ready to go now!

While we are relieved to have most of that @#$@$% bill taken care of, it's still pretty crappy. We will be living with Shane's parents - which is NOT the crappy part. It's just the fact that we worked so hard on that house for two years and then to have to watch someone else live in it and potentially ruin all of our hard work....

I am grateful to have in-laws who allow us to stay with them, especially since they thought they were going to be empty-nesters..... We will just keep really quiet and to ourselves!

The upside of all of that is... in one year, if we can afford our house again, we can move back in - it will still **hopefully** be there!

#3... my job... Yes yes yes... I should be grateful to even have a job - blah blah.... That doesn't make it any more enjoyable. There are too many things changing. I am ok with change, just not when those changes take FOREVER!!! **another silver lining here** I may be able to work from "home" (I don't really have a home to myself right now...) in a few months. But I will LOVE not having to get dressed - pj's are the best - I will LOVE being able to be in my own environment and I guarantee I will have better results. I just have to wait.......

And fourth.... My poor Shane... My Snuggle Bug has really been through the wringer lately - and it is not letting up! I know I am doing a pretty good job at being a supportive wife and mother, but there are some "boo boos" that I just cannot fix. The house is a wreck and that won't be remedied until we are moved out; he feels terrible that he is not making more money; the LVMPD people made him feel worthless - completely worthless; he doesn't get to spend as much time with Chloe as he would like; he can't figure out what to do with himself (career-wise)**adding to that last comment - He knows what he wants to do, but doubts himself.

Not trying to be the grumpy witch here, but I hate it when people say "I know what you're going through" or "other people are in the same situation" - because I can 100% guarantee you that this is a completely unique situation that you just can't relate to. Certain aspects of it - yes - but there are details that just.... ugh...

Our only enjoyment through all of this is our little Chloe. She has really kept us sane throughout all of this mess. Anyway, I just had to get all of that off my chest so you know why I'm not posting much - nor will I be for a while!!