I am... sick to death of working
I'd like to think...that there is an end in sight for working in this prison.
I've become...a meaner person since I have worked at my job. I have less patience for stupid/rude people.
I think...I need to lose at least 20 pounds to feel good about myself.
I know...that my husband loves me
I want... to sell my house and get out of Utah Valley!!
I have...the most beautiful baby that ever was or will be
I wish...that we had money - any money at all....
I hate... my job.
I miss...the carefree feeling of childhood (no bills, jobs, etc)
I fear...the death of a loved one. I have NEVER experienced that in my adult life and I know that I could not handle it.
I hear...everything - I have ears like a wolf so watch out!
I smell...Chloe. Every once in a while, I catch a whiff of her while I'm at work and it breaks my heart.
I wonder...why people are so cynical (including myself) and why liberals are the way they are. I can't stand either
I regret...too much.
I love...my baby and husband, and my family. Even though I sometimes feel a little left out, I know that I am the center of everyone's thoughts :) (just kidding)
I always...think about Chloe
I am not...perfect. In fact, I am so far from it, it brings me to tears.
I believe...that things will work out eventually
I win...nothing - I sometimes get lucky at drawings, but I am not a "winner"
I lose... shoes and rings. Shane has had to bring my ring to me more than once...
I never...thought I would let myself gain so much weight : (
I listen... to classical music often
I read...not nearly enough. I have time - I just don't manage that time well.
I...cannot wait for the day when Shane finds a job that he loves and I am able to stay at home and raise my baby. I don't want her confused about who her parents are and why mommy is gone all day. I cannot wait for the day when I have the guts to stand up for myself.
I... hate my job with every fiber of my being. This is NOT what I was meant to do. I feel like the worst person in the world because I am not at home with my baby.
I... get so irritated with people who say that they don't want to be stay at home mom's, but CAN. I would give anything to stay at home, but at this point it is out of the question.
I... am sorry that you read this and now think of me as an ungrateful witch.... I just have my opinions and am not afraid to express them (via typing....)
Amen!!!! Just know you are not alone! I was thinking how much I hate being away from my kids before I even left for work today!!!!
ReplyDeleteI totaly dont think you are a ungrateful witch. I have felt the exact same way. I have pretty much just came to terms that I have to work, & I will spend as much time as posible with devri. Anyways i hope that writing this made you feel a little better at least for a while.
ReplyDeleteBonnie you are such a good Mommy and Chloe will be forever grateful for your hard work!
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you aren't where you want to be. I didn't get to stay at home until after my first baby was already a year old. But you just never know what the Lord has in store for you. I'm sure if you keep it as your goal you'll be able to make it work someday. I know how hard it is to be at work missing your baby. :( She's adorable by the way. Love the chubby cheeks.
Your cousin Sam
bons, very sad. I hope you are feeling better - so come on Friday and I am sure I will say/do something to make you Laugh. Scott and I were talking the other day about mom and dad's favorites - and about how I was never a favorite, just kind of the middle child..... just kind of the "oh yah, and Joan....) anyways, Scott replied, "you weren't a no one, someone had to be the butt of all the jokes in the family!" Harr harr harr! I guess it was good to not be the fave, less was expected of me, right???? (teehee). And --- you know I so don't care......so come friday and let me be the butt of your jokes - beware though, I have some pretty good come backs now. And we love having you around, you just seem to be a huge home body!
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